Thursday, July 2, 2009

My GIRL!


Yesterday I got Ava all dressed up....well, I do this everyday, but I was thinking that I could take her picture yesterday for her 3 year pics. Luckily she was in a very cooperative mood and did almost everything I asked within a 2 minute time frame. Here are a couple shots that I got of her.



Pictures are another thing that are so easy for me to take, yet so hard to take too right now. I miss capturing my little boy. Everything and I mean everything reminds me of him. We were at the grocery store yesterday and I can remember all of the people saying "What a cute cowboy" and he would get mad or he would goof off and dance in the isles. I'm sure it will get easier with time and the more I go to places, but I find it weird that it is the little things that really bother me. I'm definitely a shopper and always have been, but I can't hardly walk by the boys clothes racks because it reminds me of shopping for him. Ethan loved his clothes and I was always looking for button up shirts that he would like.
I'm finally getting back into my organizing mode and I've started in our office/stamping area. I made some progress yesterday and I'm planning on working a bit on that today before Ava girl wakes up. Some things I have had for years and I think it is now time to part with them! We'll see how ambitious I actually get today. I did make a tribute wall for my Ethan and it looks wonderful. I probably won't share a picture, but it reminds me of all the things he was so crazy for.
Thanks for stopping by. I'm so amazed that the Weiman Wranglers digi stamp has raised almost $2000 for the Make-A-Wish Foundation of Illinois. That is absolutely wonderful. We are still enjoying Ethan's Make-A-Wish gift and I'll post some pictures of Ava riding our little burro (ass) to the winery last night. She has so much fun on him. Have a great 4th.....maybe I'll get my stamp area back in order and make some new creations next week!

15 comments:

Tracey Cuccia said...

She's absolutely beautiful Alicia :) Sending some more {{{HUGS}}} from NY...

Denise ~ Paper Ponderings said...

Oh I love, love, love her peeking through the tree! So cute! Sending hugs and prayers your way.

judy anderson said...

Love the photos with the trees.

Don Piper in his Book '90 minutes in Heaven' said for him there is no back to normal. Just a 'new' normal. I liked that statement and his book on dealing with death and dying.

Just know you are in my thoughts daily.

Marla said...

What a beautiful little girl! I have been praying for your family. Perhaps this might be a comforting blog for you. Start at the beginning...Dec. 2007. I receive comfort from the words.

http://tammynischan.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

Once again I marvel and commend you on your strength. You certainly do have God walking beside you. Life will get easier for you with time because God will help you with it. She is a beautiful little girl and she will help you through this because she needs you now. God bless you Alicia. Just someone who happened across your blog and followed your journey with Ethan. Sandy from MD

Wendi said...

What darling pictures. Ava is beautiful. You have been in my thoughts lately. Please know I continue to pray for you all. I think you probably wouldn't be "normal" if you didn't think of sweet little Ethan everywhere in your daily living. It is a wonderful tribute to him and the joy he brought you all.
Happy Day!

Heather said...

I love love love that first picture of Ava!!! That is a definate keeper!!!!

I love the colors of her clothes and her hair looks so cute!!!

I can not even imagine how hard all the little things are Alicia!!!

I lost my Dad when I was 13 actually watched him drown in the Ocean in Hawaii, but that was a parent not a child so I just do not know how different that would be!!!

I hope God continues to bring your good memories to light and gives you peace with the little things!!!

I am so glad you have video's and such!!!

I wish I could remember what my Dad's voice sounded like but he died in 1988 and we did not have a video camera of any kind so I do not have anything where I could hear his voice again!!!!

I admire you so much Alicia!!!! You are an amazing Mother and I just love your blog!!!

I made my card with the Digi Wranglers and the card I made that I sent to Melissa when I did the fundraiser prize on my blog to help spread the word about the fundraiser I made both Cow Boy Ethan, and Cow Girl Ava in a Western Scene with a Real Red Barn Behind them because I remember reading where you said Ethan thought his barn should have been red and he was painting his play barn red!!!

Heather

Lynn said...

Alicia,
Ava is absolutely adorable. Your faith and strength is amazing. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I'm sure Ethan is watching over you and is smiling down on you each and every day.

Renee Scharning said...

I lost my daughter, when she was 20, to a drunk driver. After I could actually leave the house, I started going to grief counseling through our local hospice. It was a group setting with other parents suffering the same loss. I don't know why but this always sticks out in my mind: One of our activites was to describe what grief meant to us. For me, I told them that I don't hear birds sing. I looked at them playing in the backyard, watched them for hours, but did not hear one chirp. A little over three years later....I hear the singing, but I still ache knowing I don't have my Steph here. I think of her daily, but I don't cry daily, so I guess I have found peace. I too stopped taking pictures, but found stamping...something new that I did not do with Steph. Well, the point of my ramblin....no one will ever know your grief, but my wish for you is to find peace. Hug Ava every day. Don't cry because your boy is gone, smile because he was there! take care

Kristin Bueter said...

Alicia~

I adore the pictures you took of Ava :O) Especially love the first one right next to the tree. She is so beautiful! The green looks so fresh on her also...

I was sad reading about the little things you find hard. I can only imagine and send you warm thoughts and prayers. I pray it gets easier every day and God helps you to find a new routine.

Happy 4th of July, girlie. Have a safe and fun celebration tonight :O)

Terri said...

She is adorable and the pictures came out great. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you each day but I really admire your strenth to keep moving forward. Hopefully in time things like that will get easier for you but at least you still have those memories. I am so glad that you have your beautiful little girl to help you get through this in the meantime too.

Lisa (lakind) said...

She is so beautiful! I love the first picture of her hugging the tree...so sweet yet mischievious looking! Thanks for sharing these!

Anki said...

What a cute little girl she is. You've captured her so well. I fully understand how difficult it must be for you. Everyday life will remind you about your sweet little Ethan. Rememember though that he is there with you - even if you can not hug him - he is walking next to you. You are in my prayers and take it step by step. Don't hurry! Kram - Anki

Gail S. said...

You and your family are still in my prayers. One day at a time. What a beautiful little girl your Ava is. Give her a hug from your blogging friends.

carole (TruCarMa) said...

Ava is so, so gorgeous, Alicia, just like her mommy. I am holding you close in my heart and thinking of you often. {{{Alicia}}}