Just wanted to pop by and say Merry Christmas! This was our picture last year visiting Santa. Oh how I miss that little boy. The picture below is what I had for my Christmas cards this year and I worked very hard coming up with a design and I kept trying to tweek it and finally figured out what was missing. It wasn't a ribbon, button, or some bling, it was my little boy. Not many have to go through what we have in the past year and I hope and pray noone else ever does, but it hasn't been easy. Christmas just isn't the same this year. We have everything up, our tree, stockings, and I even had everything bought for my cards, but I just couldn't bring myself to get them made.
I tell you what you miss when you lose a child, it's the everyday things and the big things. I remember at Christmas the kids would come to the top of the steps and wait as I went to get my camera to take their picture as they came down to look in their stocking. I remember Ethan putting the coookies on the platter for Santa last year. I remember playing air hockey most of the morning when there were still a ton of unwrapped presents under the tree. I remember Ethan being thrilled with his new tool bench and Ava being so excited about her new vanity. We even had a puppet show with the kids and Daddy. Santa even found a donkey and a horse puppet. All of this is just a memory now and it still seems so strange and surreal that Ethan isn't here. We are very blessed and so fortunate to have our baby Kale and Ava here, but there is always going to be something missing! That something is my little boy, Ethan. Oh how he could light up a room with his big smile.
For those of you out there worried about the cooking, shopping, wrapping presents, and sending cards.....remember what the true meaning of Christmas is. We have had so much taken away this year and so much given that it is hard to balance our grief ridden hearts with the blessings that we have had too. To all of you....thanks for dropping by and I hope you have a very Merry and Blessed Christmas this year!